Special Problems for Mormons

This is the kind of study I would write if I were a scholarly-type. I am not, however, so I’m glad Danizier wrote this. I plan on reading it to my wife (who grew up in a spanish speaking Catholic family) and our kids (who have grown up in an atheist family). They’ll end up knowing more about the founding of the LDS church than their devout Mormon grandparents (my parents).

Danizier

As Christians who put a messianic belief in Jesus Christ as the central doctrine of their faith, adherents to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, more commonly known as “Mormons” from their belief in the Book of Mormon as the scriptural Word of God in addition to the Bible, share many of the same problems of theology as other Christians.

While most of the points made earlier are targeted to more traditional mainstream and evangelical Christians, and some details may not apply to specific variations in Mormon beliefs, most of the concepts do apply to some extent to Mormon theology.

For example, while Mormons do allow some wiggle room on accepting inerrancy or infallibility of the Bible “as far as it is translated correctly” and thus can get around some details in contradictions, major Biblical contradictions that address key doctrinal conflicts are still problematic, as are contradictions between…

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Where’s My Blog?

Where is my blog?

I’m so angry. But at myself. There is something wrong with me and I know it. I don’t know exactly what it is but I know that whatever it is it’s affecting my… everything. I can’t remember how many projects I’ve been excited to start and haven’t. I’m writing this on a “word processor” (it does make me sentimental for my Amiga 1000 and the time when “word processors” were really important but not connected to the Internet) but I really should be writing it in an application that will easily upload the text to my blog.

But my blog doesn’t yet exist. I had intended to install wordpress and create my blog that way but got distracted by other things after wordpress didn’t easily install in Ubuntu. I also started using Evernote to keep track of all my great ideas and goals. I think I must have been manic and after that initial burst of enthusiasm I settled back into my non-routine routine of working and dealing with family issues and bouncing around between interesting subjects and short-lived projects.

So, what is wrong with me? I know I like to write. But I can’t count how many times in my life that my personal writing has devolved into “nothing I write matters! It’s all bullshit! Why do I even bother? I write my feelings to understand myself better but it’s all a lie!”. I’m angy at myself because I think if I could figure out why I can’t stick to one project long enough to really go deep into it, rather than just skimming the surface of everything, I could actually create something that would be satisfying and fulfilling.

But I’m 42 years old now and I’ve been repeating the same pattern since I was 12. And that makes it really difficult to believe that I should even bother trying. And I usually don’t bother trying. And when I get in a manic mood and feel like doing something, the part of me that remembers my previous experiences wants to tamp down the enthusiasm and lower my expectations so I won’t have to suffer unnecessary disappointment. And I don’t know what to do about it even though I understand the process.

Would it help if I knew I was exposing my words to others? Maybe. I’d like to try. Maybe just getting some feedback from other human beings would keep me going and foster self-understanding. The social aspects of the Internet these days is really amazing and intimate in a way that has never existed before on such a large scale in human history. I think I just managed to articulate for the first time why I find personal written blogs so appealing to read and to write.

The other helpful thing about personal blogs posted on the Internet is that they are permanent in a way my horrible computer-file organization skills can never hope to challenge. Once my thoughts are stored on a public server somewhere, I don’t have to worry about the fact the floppy disk I saved my Word Perfect files on is no longer readable by any current technology, or that the hard drive crashed and I didn’t have a backup.

So, that’s it. The difference between me writing in this wordprocessor and writing on a blog that others are going to be able to read is like me writing to myself (like I feel I’m doing here) and me writing to the world, no matter how few people actually read it. Right now, I feel like I’m talking to myself and I hate that. I want others to hear me and it’s so possible now I’m angry at myself for not having figured it out before.